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This Has Been the Worst Month Of My Life

This has been the worst month of my life.

I lost two family pets which were my near and dear to my heart…practically children to me, regardless how others may feel.

I’ve really gotten to know who my true friends are. As for the phony ones, they are dead to me.

I thought I would emotionally eat during this time but I’ve only had a few bad days. Perhaps I even lost a few pounds, though that was not my intention.

After meeting with so many celebrities in the last few years making this film, maybe it is rubbing off.

I think back to Jillian Michaels, Ruby Gettinger, Dr. Judith Beck and even Bob Harper. Each and every one of them were so human and gave me strength. Even Michelle Bouchard from Dr. Oz’s Health Corps. was a positive influence.

Everyone wants to help but when you are in such emotional turmoil it seems like a lost cause.

I wake up in the morning and my little ones are not there.

Isolation has become my best friend.

It is ironic that all of this should takes place at the end of production. It has been over three years of my life that I have felt like I have forsaken so much.

I just always felt if I could effect just one person’s life other then my own, then it will all be worth it.

On this journey I have learned and experienced so much I can’t wait to share with you all on the screen.

It just never entered my mind how long and life changing this would be.

I now make two promises.

The first, is to finish this film for everyone.

The second, is to help the great foundations representing this very cause that I so believe in.

There has to be good that comes from this film and I will do whatever it takes to make it happen.

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A Bridge Over Troubled Water

With the flooding of my media room the other day, I really did not know if I would turn to food.  But even with all of my precious belongings ruined and under water with weeks of replacing and rebuilding ahead of me, I will persevere.

Of course food does seem like a very tempting offer right now. But I will continue to try and eat right because short -term satisfaction turns into long- term failure. Why mitigate the damage by doing more? I just need to find a way to do something else.

Besides, there were so many other people that have lost so much more in far worse situations.

It has been a very hard last number of days. Having a aunt die, losing your best friend and then most of your material things, really makes you have to count on yourself.

I like to think I am stronger then other people emotionally, though the truth is that I usually cut people off and turn to the worst foods for comfort…one of the reasons I know that cost me a dear friendship.

I think what I have learned is to turn inwards instead of out. This way I can make the most out of me and learn how to cope with unexpected life.

There has to be a better way. My diet is myself. It has to be my choice how to deal.

If I have learned one thing from my three years producing ‘Finding Thin’, it is to turn inwards first. There is always another day to look forward and learn more about myself. And I’ll outwardly show it as I persevere.