Went to the doctor…
Lost 10 gained 13. Not a good time on the scale for me this week.
I am discovering so many things about myself on this journey. I’m discovering metaphors… and they come in color. There is only black or white for me. No middle ground. I am always going to the extreme when dieting. Eating too little is my black, and eating too many calories is my white.
When I go off the wagon, I make excuses and start bargaining with myself for my physical “grey area”.
I was shocked to find out that I really wasn’t addicted to sugar. When I was feeling good or upbeat, I could actually eat one cookie and not another.
It really is the emotions and the images of the food that gets me. The visual, emotional and physical tastiness seems to be the hardest to bargain against.
My most favorite thing out of all of this is the life lessons that I get to learn.
And I’m ready to use them to get myself out of this middle- grey -ground.