Almost three years ago I began the quest for “Finding Thin.”
During my quest to find thin, I started to gain even more weight.
Traveling all around the country interviewing Jillian Michaels, Bob
Harper, Tony Horton and more, was extremely stressful and offered very
few healthy eating opportunities throughout the way.
In truth, I used the stress as an excuse that in turn failed my body,
my health, and overall, myself. Emotional eating has interrupted any
successful weight loss for as long as I’ve ever known.
Last week I lost my beloved Pug and it was devastating. This was the
last of my dogs and the loss of two in a month or so time.
My world was completely torn apart. Life didn’t feel right, even in my
own bed where I’ve been barely fighting off sleepless nights. Any
mention of my dog broke me into a million little pieces.
In the past, I’d usually turn to food to ease my pain, but this time
it just didn’t feel right.
It was as if someone put some sort of mind trap in me and I could not
reach for the food.
Suddenly there were just a few poor food choices…but I didn’t even
care. I believe that I even lost weight.
Whether or not this is because I feel so empty inside or not, I am not
sure. Though the one thing I know is that over the last couple of
months, I have felt very different when it came to emotions and
eating. I wasn’t even trying for weight loss and yet it seemed to be
There is still internal pain that I have to get through, but there is
also that feeling of success for being able to deal with something as
devastating as this in such a different way.
I guess the point that I am trying to make is that even in the darkest
hours, there is still hope out there.
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Over the past week, I have started to veer off onto a bad road where I haven’t been watching what I have been eating, I have not been exercising, and overall I have let stress get to me. All I needed was a little bit of inspiration to help me get back on track. This past weekend, I traveled down to Tennessee to meet with Jillian Michaels, Host of NBC’s Biggest Loser, were she is on the set of her new NBC show set to be aired this summer called “Loosing it with Jillian”.
I have always watched Jillian on TV and I know she is very smart and has a terrific presence on the show. I must admit however that I had no idea what it was going to be like meeting her in person and talking with her directly. After meeting her I realized she is exactly what we see on TV. Jillian is a terrific person who cares about people and wants to see them take care of themselves. She wants to figure out the bottom line for why we eat and why are we fat. Just listening to her tell her story growing up and hearing what she had to say about my story showed me Jillian speaks from the heart and knows her stuff to back it up.
What was very surprising for me was that there was a certain honesty and realness to Jillian. No sense of holding anything back or being pretentious. Just a very true person with deep emotions who actually really believes and cares about the peoples whose lives she helps. Jillian doesn’t try to make any pretence about being perfect and knowing it all but rather tries to concentrate on the good in everyone and bringing out their potential in leading better and healthier lives.
I take to heart Jillian’s method of weight issues, that there are underlying reasons behind being obese and eating. Before you can loose the weight, these issues must be addressed. Is this THE answer to the obesity issue? I think it is a big one, and definitely the biggest foot forward to helping. And if you don’t believe me you can see the tremendous out come in our interview with Jillian in the upcoming film “Finding Thin” and in June on NBC in “Loosing it with Jillian” debuting this summer.
Jillian Michaels and Barry Roskin Blake filming the documentary "Finding Thin".
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