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New Vision, Better Diet

Yesterday, I had my first visit to the dietitian’s. This was a complete eye opener. I was introduced to a way of eating that I could probably follow my whole life: I don’t need to deprive myself, I can eat what I like as long as I watch what it is.

At first, I gotta say it was a lot to take in. I am not a big fan of English and Math, so when I am told I am going to have to read a lot of labels, analyze ingredients and then count, WOW that’s a lot to do. I don’t know  if I will always make time to do that: when I am hungry, I wanna eat and that’s it…

I learned a lot: now I know how to count carbs and what healthy snacks I can eat. I have a full list of ingredients and food elements to help me change my diet. I have discovered that I was not eating enough and it wasn’t just about calorie counts.

Interesting enough, the session made me hungry. One of the examples to explain portion sizes/calorie count/carbs was a Ben and Jerry’s ice cream container. 1) I love ice cream. 2) This was a flavor I didn’t know. 3) I hadn’t eaten before my weigh in… So, during the session I kept thinking about where I’d be able to find this pint of ice cream.

I have lost 10 pounds in 2 weeks and have felt exhausted all week again. For the next 2 weeks, my new goal is to lose weight while eating healthier. Food is not a forbidden fruit anymore and I am not scared of it either. I am seeing things differently and I am ready for a change.

The word “diet” is not my enemy anymore. What about you?

Needing Comfort Food

>>>Last night

Right now I am having a bad night. I cannot sleep, I am stressed and I feel rejected. A good friend of mine forgot my birthday. I got promised a gift I never got. My online dating has been unsuccessful. When negative feelings come my way, I turn to food.

I would usually bury myself in an ice cream container but I am trying to fight that need. I have worked hard and lost 10 pounds in the last couple of weeks. If I turn to food to be happy again, I feel like I will betray everything I have been working on so far.

I am not big on sports and I don’t have a busy social life. The only comfort I know is food. It fixes me up and keeps me happy. At one point though, I think my comfort food turned against me by making me fat. How ironic…

In the last year, I have been through a lot and I have realized that I don’t need people to treat me right; I actually need to treat myself (mind+body) right. By doing so, I can feel respected and change the way I see life.

Tonight, I still want to jump in the car and drive to the first convenience store to get some ice cream. Hopefully I can find the strength not to do it…

>>>Today

Yesterday night, I had 2 bowls of grapenut flakes and 3 rice puddings.              Total = 1200 calories. I didn’t go to any store to get ice cream or any other snack. What is your comfort food? Where else do you get comfort if it is not food?

Discipline

Today, I wrote down exactly what I ate and kept track of calorie counts and quantity. For 3 days in a row I have been keeping a log of my food intake. I began to be followed by a doctor almost a month ago so it sounds weird to only have 3 days on record.

What happened is that, I didn’t care about what I was eating as long as I estimated that it wasn’t bad for me.  And whatever I ate that was unhealthy or things I binged on, I literally erased them from my memory and didn’t keep track of it.

I am finally going along with the concept of “discipline”. I hate that word, can’t stand it. Probably reminds me of some bad childhood memories or jobs I didn’t keep or didn’t like. I hate the sound of it so much that we refer it as “getting your sh…t together” on the Finding Thin team.

Before the “getting your sh…it together” era, I would leave the office from time to time to go eat something without my team knowing about it. I would buy ice cream at the same time I’d go buy my medication. I would sneak in biscuits and cookies… I’d order pizza and hide the boxes not to get caught. I actually got busted a couple of times.

I went shopping two days ago and didn’t buy the snack food or ice cream I would usually get. Since I was at my favorite store and there is so much to find there, I did get boxes of my favorite 100-calorie chocolate covered peanut butter snack bars… but before I even touched them, I gave them away so I wouldn’t get tempted.

Next time I go shopping, I will go with a list of healthy things to buy and a plan on how not to get attracted to the usual microwavable and frozen meals… I also plan on learning how to cook and enjoy it. I will not go shopping on my own anymore until I am strong enough not to buy things I shouldn’t eat.

Am I on the right path?