I was feeling quite guilty this past year as I saw myself gaining weight going against my resolutions I set last year.
This feeling of guilt followed me until I discovered the other day that I was exactly the same weight that I was last March.
Some might say that this is a terrible fact and I should be filled with shame, but I am taking a different approach this year. I now look at it as an important piece of information through my personal journey on the film.
And even though at my same weight, I have to give myself the benefit of the doubt that I did not gain any weight back.
I have not gone back up to four hundred pounds. I have beat the odds in an odd kind of way.
Now I find myself able to turn away certain foods that I used to eat all the time. I don’t feel deprived anywhere as much as I used to.
So, the next time I make a resolution or goal, I will think realistically and make it more attainable so I actually feel better about myself… and prove myself against all odds.