I have spent too many times in a restaurant or at the checkout aisle in the grocery store embarrassed by what I was buying.
Numerous times I gave up going out to lunch or dinner with my family out of the same fear. People said that this fear was all in my head, but realistically, I feel like I am a walking billboard for obesity.
If I have dessert at a table, people look at me with shame. Yet those same people can have the post-dining treat without even a thought of judgement from my end.
I feel like I am the circus act that dares to enter the places that I am supposed to stay away from.
It drives me crazy that everyone looks at dieting as a form of will power, but it can’t be further from the truth. After all, who would WANT the lifestyle of a person battling obesity ?
For instance, how many people watched Kirstie Alley on ‘Dancing With The Stars’ for the prowess of her dancing? They watched because they wanted to see the side show, and had the opportunity to witness when or if she’d fail. She had the potential for just that… right?
We have view those who are fighting obesity in a different light. Whether you consider it a disease or not, bigotry and verbal abuse should not be tolerated in any society.
Wouldn’t it be a great world if everyone was treated equal?
Obviously this equal outlook isn’t going to happen immediately, but at least we can educate people about the emotional harm that their ignorance brings.
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During this Thanksgiving holiday, I have fallen right back into my bad habits. I think I might have gained 10 pounds but I don’t know for sure and I won’t dare to step on the scale. I thought it might happen, but what worries me the most is I don’t know why.
Yesterday, I ate all the possible food I had banned myself from. That was a mistake. I should have never prevented myself from eating what I like in the first place. My second mistake was to keep the same logic I had when I was thinner of “oh it is only a mistake if I fail to correct it.”
I can now hear a little voice in my head saying, “ Guess what Barry? It is a mistake even if you correct it, so acknowledge it and do something about it.” True, you don’t want to get off one wagon and think you’ll catch the next one; you gotta stay on this one no matter how hard it is.
I want to investigate why this happened to me and what I can do to prevent this from happening again. Giving in to all my favorite desserts as if it was the last day on earth definitely proves that there is something wrong with my new diet.
I think it will take me some time to understand everything I am going through right now. My latest venture is into the Cognitive Behavioral Therapy approach by authors like Judith Beck whom I interviewed a year ago. I will write about it in my upcoming blogs.
Happy black Friday to all and try not to burn a hole in your wallet!
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